Will I ever get to the point where another's pregnancy doesn't stop me in my tracks?
Will I ever hear of a miscarriage and not instantly be taken back?
Even days later, I find myself still paralyzed at someone else's news.
I am happy for the others when they are happy, but I grieve for myself.
I am sad for the others when they are sad, and I am sad for days.
And sometimes I find myself rejoicing over another's happiness while I mourn my own.
Why must it be this way?
If I hear another person hope that they aren't pregnant, I don't know what I'm going to do.
I know I've posted about this before, but honestly, it's what weighs on my mind the most.
I am blessed.
I am a mother to a son, which is more than some can say.
I should not be discontent.
Well, I'm still holding to the "catfish theory" and that I'll be hearing good news from you within the next year. Contrary to nature, it works in the reverse for me. :)
ReplyDeleteHeather I'm so sorry you're feeling so down at the moment. I can not understand what it is like to walk in your shoes but I felt your sadness as I read your post and I can pray for you.
ReplyDeleteBlessings and Love
Narelle
I'm sorry you are having a hard time, Heather. (((HUGS))). Sometimes things happen when you least expect it. Here's hoping! :)
ReplyDeleteOh, Heather I feel your heartache.
ReplyDeleteAnd God does too.
I have had 2 miscarriages and had trouble getting pregnant with our first two and know the roller coaster of emotions that you go through as you hear of others news.
Praying for you, friend.